Here then

which is worse:
describing something you can't see?
or seeing something you can't describe?

SEEDS!

like a fiend, I ate pumpkin seeds.


I was surprised to find out that people actually look at this blog, muwhahaha. Asking why I haven't posted anything new... well truth be told, I'm drawing less and less. I spend a lot of time coding html (self taught) I actually think from time to time that could be my day job, as much as I do it. blahhh

I think I'm just really burnt after the first round of commissions. I almost ALMOST want to shut it down... already. I needed some kind of psuedo job for here-say because I don't have money that would allow me to have a real place for creativity which would allow me to have a real job...which defeats the purpose in the first place. ehhhruuuu? I'm so confused by my own issues. I used to feel depressed but I kind of enjoy dropping the ball all over again just to see how far it rolls.

On a side note. I'm SERIOUSLY debating a 'dream journal'. I dream...constantly and I have a mind like a steel-trap so it'd be easy to pod-cast my dreams via blog. wouldn't that be nice, something for you all to read on a daily basis! my un-censored subconcious creative mind...from which the majority of my inspiration comes from. whooooo.

lacking there of

I miss my computer, but above all I miss my health. Looks like I've concocted the flu, so early in the season too. I wish I was never sick. They should just strap me in a plastic bubble if that were any help. :( so all my art is going putzy and I'm doing nothing but MS paintings. darnit, I was doing so good for so long and then PUHHHh! oh well, just a minor setback!

I Quit Art

Is that even possible? art...no no drawing is just something I do...so much that it becomes part of me. I just need to find a way to pay the bills so I can keep making these sketches. oh how am I going to do that...HOW... *whine whine whimper whimper etc.* *barf*

ballz mcgee!

School is starting up again, I only had a measley week or so off because I was at summer school. Oh well, at least this is the last semester. Already I want to start another program because I'll be able to transfer my reqs and finish up twice as fast by continuing school. BUT I DON'T HAVE THE MON'AY!!!

There's so much crapp I need to update, like my computer for one. I've never actually owned my own, just a lot of burnt out hand-me downs. I'm grateful but I can't believe I'm trying to do the kind of artwork I want to do on them. I don't know how I survived coloring with a mouse in photoshop 5.0 all those years...worse yet 3.0!!! I'm going to have to start doing comissions just so I can afford to buy paper.

It's all going to come down at once... post webcomic, update portfolio site, open commissions, etc. ect. but I am so many miles, transportaionless, and several days from possible contact, away from the tools to do it... *hangs head in despair*.

Earth, is a beautiful place now

art is so frustrat'n!!!

teh killering litz

summer school forces me to appreciate the weekends so now it looks like I'm revisiting Mayu no Densetsu... That project has just spread itself wide open to a total reconstructive design. Mahou Shoujo or not it could be EeEEeeeevil. muwahahahahahahaaaaa. phbbb and here I only post the crappiest of todays trash pile. whoo!

that funny feeling, again

its been a long while...and I just gotta say "argh!"

Meant To Be

now adays I just let my ipod run my life. speaking and thinking by the titles it plays...because you are my sleeping beauty! You're all that I have--gack sorry.

I'm so bored! sitting the cafeteria from 10-3...with nothing to do. They won't allow me up in the animation lab anymore. I didn't bring my wacom. I can't go home because when I get there I supposed to either help my grandparents move or do my homework. gee I could do my homework right here and now... but no I'd rather paint in PaintMS with a mouse... blahhh!

NOes

crapp...I broke my scanner while moving my office around. At least I think it's broken, I'm having one of those 'technical errors' where it won't turn on. ...yes. It is plugged in.

ze neu method of 'cope'

hurray, the process that is keyframing. I haven't animated anything in years! I was so happy with working again that I whipped up this little greyscale-lighting piece with one of the pencil test sketches. dumm dee dee dee... okay now I must sleep...

MAgnets

oh mahn! I'm totallilly lit! hey this is like my first 'under influence' pic in a long time. now now, I'm not into that sort of thing. It has just been a crappy day, and I needed to vent a little. oh it feels good but not fulfilling. I wish I could afford therapy I feel as if its this game show where you can win a prize if you can prove by their standards that you're totally sane and a humble part of the worlds society. oh well I'll just have to keep imagining...my life sucks otherwise. cept for you Chris! aw I love ya babe! *hic

Someone please take me to see Royal Finger Bowl! please?

April...when bad-s*#@ happens!

Never the less, I'm resistant to my selfpitying woes. Its damn impossible to guess ones worth to others by directly asking them, haha. Afterall, if you find out something you don't like about yourself are you going to change? gahh who wants to be trendy! >_<>

who's bored...Ashley is.

Muwahh I can't stand the 'bitchez' in the cafeteria at the noon shift. You're all so loud! I just got over one of those psychadelic migraines and now this? speaking of migraines... they're not like headaches at all. They're more like non-fatal strokes. Recently I have the usual symptoms of total blindess, nauseau, the crushing pain, and almost the mind bending illusions that my body is contorting itself but lately I've been going completely numb in my left arm and tongue. yikes.

Acem sketchy sketchy storyboardnessnessness

you'll get to that part soon enough...

ACEM-biblical-looking Lucius

This be a small work in progress once I get over revising the practiceness of it. warhharg harg harg its so bad...

I MADE A SNOWMAN!

"...and it went where ever I did go..."

Daryncostume

mayu no densetsu. I'm still trying to come with the costume designs..argh

Piracy

space piracy a-hoy!

I can't get enough of the Mütter Museum!

just a wee process

I'd hire an assistant to do my sorting but that'd just be cruel. This be nothing but a fraction of what I have to sort through. argh...

what was Slay...

...is now recycled art for I have been crushed once again...only temporarily...damn yous, carrot brain!

character pitch

Remember how great ren and stimpy was back in the day? It was cute and awkward with the cuddly roommate thing just short of being gay... that was until networks aired it uncensored. This revealed how repressed the cat/dog couple's drama was all these years. It really turned out to be a work of art once it came out of the closet. However, a friend and I were saddend that the 'cuddlyroomate' feeling never truly existed within the series. Of course we had an idea to make a comic series centered around that concept in the shadow of shonen ai genre short of yaoi. Also challenging my typical female lead design, who always ends up lacking in personality, to take a sort of male role. Also to fuel my obession with making 'fat-things' cute. This is the first character design pitch for that series.

M-MOLE!

MOLEY MOLEY MOLEY!!!

alright, originally for the shadow children project but my MOLE!

02.13.07

Finally, a place to put all my doodles and nothing more! whoo!