it's still here!

ho ho ho when life treats you bad there is but one blog still untainted enough for me to dwell in. yeah I'm so glad this thing is still here and the major fact that NOONE READS IT HAHAHAHAAA. It's like that secret-whisper story from 2046. A place for me to utter my cryptic pleas from the outside world into the abyssmal side of the internet.

Today, I don't know what my problem is!

Here then

which is worse:
describing something you can't see?
or seeing something you can't describe?

SEEDS!

like a fiend, I ate pumpkin seeds.


I was surprised to find out that people actually look at this blog, muwhahaha. Asking why I haven't posted anything new... well truth be told, I'm drawing less and less. I spend a lot of time coding html (self taught) I actually think from time to time that could be my day job, as much as I do it. blahhh

I think I'm just really burnt after the first round of commissions. I almost ALMOST want to shut it down... already. I needed some kind of psuedo job for here-say because I don't have money that would allow me to have a real place for creativity which would allow me to have a real job...which defeats the purpose in the first place. ehhhruuuu? I'm so confused by my own issues. I used to feel depressed but I kind of enjoy dropping the ball all over again just to see how far it rolls.

On a side note. I'm SERIOUSLY debating a 'dream journal'. I dream...constantly and I have a mind like a steel-trap so it'd be easy to pod-cast my dreams via blog. wouldn't that be nice, something for you all to read on a daily basis! my un-censored subconcious creative mind...from which the majority of my inspiration comes from. whooooo.

lacking there of

I miss my computer, but above all I miss my health. Looks like I've concocted the flu, so early in the season too. I wish I was never sick. They should just strap me in a plastic bubble if that were any help. :( so all my art is going putzy and I'm doing nothing but MS paintings. darnit, I was doing so good for so long and then PUHHHh! oh well, just a minor setback!

I Quit Art

Is that even possible? art...no no drawing is just something I do...so much that it becomes part of me. I just need to find a way to pay the bills so I can keep making these sketches. oh how am I going to do that...HOW... *whine whine whimper whimper etc.* *barf*

ballz mcgee!

School is starting up again, I only had a measley week or so off because I was at summer school. Oh well, at least this is the last semester. Already I want to start another program because I'll be able to transfer my reqs and finish up twice as fast by continuing school. BUT I DON'T HAVE THE MON'AY!!!

There's so much crapp I need to update, like my computer for one. I've never actually owned my own, just a lot of burnt out hand-me downs. I'm grateful but I can't believe I'm trying to do the kind of artwork I want to do on them. I don't know how I survived coloring with a mouse in photoshop 5.0 all those years...worse yet 3.0!!! I'm going to have to start doing comissions just so I can afford to buy paper.

It's all going to come down at once... post webcomic, update portfolio site, open commissions, etc. ect. but I am so many miles, transportaionless, and several days from possible contact, away from the tools to do it... *hangs head in despair*.

Earth, is a beautiful place now

art is so frustrat'n!!!